Friday, January 31, 2014

And now-


Made it home yesterday from Atlanta. Shelbie and her man are the best.
Am still exhausted. And unimpressed. I look like I'm not wearing anything up in that sad picture, but I swear I am in a tank top.
Today was really long and people are stupid.

But Abbie gave me twenty-five cents and a bottle cap today for "cuddools" (cuddles). She's awesome.
Check back this weekend for another TIOW post, week five of the 52 project, and an update on the Year of the Jars. Maybe even a more cheerful webcam pic.

Wednesday, January 29, 2014

Snowpocalypse 2014



Shitty webcam pictures to show what most of my snow (see : ice) days have been like. Day Two of Snowpocalypse 2014 in metro Atlanta...pretty sure we've been all over the news since yesterday. "Amanda, how's it going?" you may ask? Let's see...

Clusterfuck closings everywhere yesterday? 
Check

Rip open boot walking to the train when school decided in the middle of the bad weather to close? Check

Being on a Marta train that caught fire? 
Double Check

Having to wait on a single rail line for a northbound train for about 30 minutes? 
Mmhm

Arriving at my station only to stand in the weather for nearly four hours before learning the buses have stopped running completely and unless I want to hoof it, I have no way home? 
How'd you know?

Be the cause for my dad not getting home until 2 am because he was trying to come get me? 
Yup.

Have to go back to Atlanta to find shelter with a good friend and her roommates? 
Oui oui

Feel like shit for having to stay another day because of continued bus suspension and road closes? 
Ya think?

Having to borrow said good friend's clothes so mine can at least be washed? 
Si.

Watching people have no sense of humor when you are doing your damnedest to not be miserable?
Eeyup

Listening to people who are safe in their own homes bitch about being stuck?
Naw, really?

Haven't seen or barely spoken to my kid since Tuesday morning, knowing she has no idea why I didn't come home?
I thought you'd never ask!


Needless to say, I am very bitter right now and feeling extremely petty about it. I know I shouldn't be deep down. Abbie and my family are home, completely safe. And I am beyond grateful to have a great friend like Shelbie and her wonderful roommates that are letting me bunk here for two days because of all this. I feel so shitty having to invade on them like this, but they have been so helpful and kind. This was a mess that could have been prevented and Georgia damn well knows it now. But it doesn't change that I, along with many, are still stuck in situations like this. So for now, I feel like my bitterness is well earned. I want to be home with my Owlfish. 

Dear Abbie, I'm sorry I'm not there with you and be with you to see your first snow. 
Please forgive me.

Dear Georgia, fuck off.

Monday, January 27, 2014

4 / 52


-portrait of my daughter, once a week, every week of 2014-

Abbie: Keeping to her schedule from school, she takes herself to nap everyday at 12:45.

It's funny that I looked at the past three pictures for this project and she's wearing a similar pink shirt each time. I promise she changes clothes each day! She's just vert attached to either this Monster's Inc. shirt from her Aunt Voni or the one she found in my toddler clothes from the nineties. :) We've also gotten attached to that white and purple blanket she's had since birth now that bink is almost gone. It's an improvement anyway.

This picture was shot with my Nikon D3000 with Af-S Nikkor 18-55 mm lens (the kit lens).

Saturday, January 25, 2014

Things I'm Obsessed With

First TIOW post of 2014, so I'm starting out with something familiar. This post is going to be pretty picture heavy this time, so enjoy! This week's thing I'm obsessed with is-


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Bicycle Baskets

I don't care how hipster or childish you think this makes me sound, but can you get anymore nostalgic than a bike with a basket? I've wanted one since I was little and my best friend at the time had this luridly pink and purple bike with a wooden basket tied to the front. I miss biking everywhere like I did when I was going to West GA, although I gave my nice mountain bike to my little brother since he wanted it more than me. I'm in the market for a new bike, and my only requirements are it be a vintage red, have a child's seat, and a wooden basket on the front. I would die happy right then and there. :)


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(found via google image, but I am pretty sure this is from Jessica Naomi's blog)

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I live so close to a grocery store and a library! I could be doing this...getting food and books, fulfilling a romantic fairytale fantasy along the way. Come awwwwn.

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COME AWN! Look how cute!!

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This even has a kinfolk in it! <3

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Fall, flora, and baskets! Just add some hot tea, a book, and my kiddo jumping in leaves, and I'm set.

Saturday, January 18, 2014

3 / 52


-portrait of my daughter, once a week, every week of 2014-

Abbie: Her grandparents found a bucket of my old toddler clothes they held onto. She chose today's outfit came from those clothes even though she isn't the biggest fan of the color pink.

This picture was shot with my Nikon D3000 with Af-S Nikkor 18-55 mm lens (the kit lens).

Owlfish is really growing up.

Recently, Abbie has really attached herself to the show Mickey Mouse Clubhouse, which is completely okay with me. But she decided to shock me recently by talking to the show using lines from it! Like when Mickey and his friends call on the Mousekatool, Toodles, she'll cup her hands around her mouth and go "Oh Tooddles!". She also answers "yes" and "no" when Mickey asks a question. And today, she counted to FIVE! Count it 1, 2, 3, 4, 5! And she also can identify her name when it's written out and the letters A, B, C, and M (I think the "M" because of "Mommy"). I don't know what got into her today, but she's be loving showing off all she knows. It's so exciting to hear, but there's still a little part of me that keeps thinking "Stop growing so fast." My baby really isn't a baby anymore, she's a big kid. I know daycare will help spur the growth the longer she's there, but my fragile little mom heart sometimes can't take it.

Seriously, look at this:



The top picture was one I took of Abbie when she was five months, way back in Aril of 2012. The bottom one is one I took of her last week while snapping off pictures for the 52 Project. I still remember the little drooling tumble of a baby she was in the top picture, I remember that exact moment. So much has happened between both of these pictures, in both of our lives. But still, to see how much she has changed as a growing human is beautiful and heartbreaking. She's so smart and beautiful, I know every mother on the GD planet says that, but she is. And she's mine. I'm excited to see just how far she'll go.

Yes, I'm being corny and sentimental instead of doing my homework. It's worth it. :)


Thursday, January 16, 2014

Back to class



Dirty hands.

Ink stain souvenirs, ripping apart books, and heading home under the first full moon of 2014. The wolf moon no less. Despite the fact I was covered in ink and clutching my knife the whole walk to the train, it wasn't a bad way to end the day. And my classes so far have been really interesting (this whole week has rather). I'm only taking two courses this semester two days a week, so it's opened up a lot of time for me to work as well. It's going to be interesting to see how I can handle being a mother, going to school, and working almost full time. I'm anxious as fuck, but I think I have it in me.

But speaking of school, recognize this face?


How's that for a flashback?? This was from Valentine's Day 2012, which would make her about four months! Hard to believe, but this chipmunk cheek disapprover started early learning daycare this week! She attends three days out of the week and so far, it's been fantastic according to her teachers! She's very well-behaved, plays well with the other kids, and helps out with clean up and snack time. Sorta doesn't sound like my Owlfish, does it? But then I get the comments of how bright, but bossy she sometimes is. Now that's more like it. In all honesty, daycare was not the route I ever wanted to go, but I'm so proud of her! She's taken to it really well and I'm hoping this will help her learning wise. Bright and bossy. Deny it all you want, my kid's going places. :)

Hope you've had a good week so far!

Monday, January 13, 2014

2 / 52


-portrait of my daughter, once a week, every week of 2014-

Abbie: She starts daycare school tomorrow and just got The Princess and the Frog dvd

This picture was shot with my Nikon D3000 with Af-S Nikkor 18-55 mm lens (the kit lens).

Tuesday, January 07, 2014

Zing..boom.

"I fall in love with everything. I also hate everything. 
It's very hard to be a misanthrope and a romantic."

Tumblr basically just summed me up completely in 20 words. 
Great.




(no, I do not have a tumblr.)

Saturday, January 04, 2014

1 / 52


Abigail Jolene, window guard extraordinaire


Last year, I watched blogger Miss James over at Bleubird Vintage do a portrait of her children once a week for all 52 of 2013. It was a real neat project to see how she charted her kids and how their changes. I think I'm going to take on the challenge and do a picture of Abbie once a week until the end of the year. I'm hoping that it'll challenge me to pick up my DSLR or even one of my film cameras to take her picture instead of using my iPhone or webcam because they're just readily available. Because it's my first week, I cut myself some slack and used my mac's webcam for the above picture, but I don't plan to do that much if I can help it. So wish me luck! Check back under the tagline "52 project" to see each week.

Wednesday, January 01, 2014

Year of the Jars

Hello 2014~

So...still stuck in bed. Still sick. It's not fun. And cabin fever is for the goddamn birds. But it got me to thinking, so hold on for a long, hipster picture, sap ridden post. I'm being snarky on purpose, I've been ill all day. :)

I think I'm going to attempt a new thing this year as a way of keeping my positivity up and as a fun game to do with Abbie. I have so many dreams and aspirations that I want to make possible in my life, her life, just in general. But even with journaling them all down, I'm one of those people that needs a constant stimulation in order to keep those goals in sight. I get lazy a lot. So instead of just journaling and talking, I'm going to try a little action...see how long I can do it.

I'm going to make 2014 the year of the jars.


I keep seeing all these hipster-y tumblr-ish pictures of mason jars with dream notes, money goals, and mementos in them all over the inter verse (see above...). At first I kind thought they were hokey at best and for people who could pretend they didn't have a care in the world. But the more I saw them, the more those silly mason jars started to grow on me. 

I remember one therapy session when I was living in Carrollton that my therapist had me try an experiment to boost my self esteem and positivity. For two weeks, I had to write myself at least one note each day with a positive thing that happened. I then had to put the note(s) in a colored envelope and hang it on a clothesline I strung in my room, that way I could see them each day. After the two weeks were up, I was to bring the notes to my session and read them out loud. At the time, I thought it was so stupid and ridiculous. I was extremely reluctant to try it simply because I thought it wouldn't work. Later that day, I was having tea with a close friend and I told her about this experiment. To my surprise, that she thought it was an awesome idea and offered to do it with me so I wouldn't feel so silly. I was touched and a little floored, but we agreed to do the project together. 



So for fourteen days, I wrote notes to myself, she wrote notes to herself, and we strung them on a clothesline in my room. By the last day, my room was starting to look like a flock of tropical birds were camping out on my ceiling, because we were having so much fun with it that we wrote several notes each day. When I went to my session, my therapist allowed her to come to so we could show what we had accomplished. It was a real eye opening experience for me, especially re-reading all the good that had happened in just fourteen days. Some times it was small things, like my hair looked great or I didn't get blisters from walking everywhere. But still, good things. It turned out I had a lot of positivity in my life as it was and I just wasn't looking.

And that's what I think the year of the jars might do for me again. It'll be something fun for me to see each day and do each day as a small reminder that there is still good things around me. And it'll give me a chance to start showing Abbie sorting colors, haha! 



My intention is to have three jars, the trinity is a good number to do for this year. One for dreams/mementos throughout the year. One to start saving money for something fun. One for stars. I learned how to make origami stars back in middle school and I think it would be fun to do with Abbie, even if she doesn't quite get it. Stars to represent what I should reach for, for each goal accomplished, for each good thing (it's sappy, so shoot me!).

And I think each week if I can, I will shoot a picture of the jars to post here. Just as a reminder and proof :) Just need to start somewhere, right?

Hope you guys had a great first day of the year and weren't stuck being miserable in bed like I was...fucking colds...

All pictures found via weheartit(dot)com